FOOD GLORIOUS FOOD!!!

My mom went grocery shopping for me and I am sooooo happy!
I can now get really serious about my weight loss now. I have been without vegetables for about 3 weeks and without fruit for about a week and it has been hard to figure out what to eat. I have stayed within my points, but my choices were not always the greatest.

Some of the foods I got:
apples, oranges, bananas, broccoli, cauliflower, tomatoes, mushrooms, carrots, whole grain bread, chicken breasts, low fat lunch meat, tuna, cereal plus some other things.

Today's food kinda sucked until dinner which was very yummy!!!
Boneless skinless chicken breast, seasoned and grilled on the George Foreman, fried rice with mushrooms and green onions, and carrots.

Tomorrow's Plan
b- Special K cereal with 1% milk & banana (6)
s- yogurt (1)
l- grilled chicken on a WW bun w tomato and low fat mayo, green apple, diet Pepsi (8)
s- orange (1)
d- TBD: having a mother daughter night, so we may get Thai food...I have 16pts left to use, plus 30WPA
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I was thinking today about how far I actually HAVE come.
Although I have gained some of my weight back, I still have some success. I do not eat anywhere near as bad or as much as I used to. I don't get as winded doing things as I used to either.

Back in 2005 we had a heat wave, and John and I did not want to turn the stove on because it was so hot. We ate out waaaaaaaayyyy more than we should have. Probably no less than 3 times per week.
Also one horrible thing I used to do when I was bored was drive to some fast food restaurant and get a burger. I would do this in between lunch and dinner. I wasn't necessarily hungry. I just was bored and fast food was the first thing on my mind. This was such a horrible thing that I am glad I stopped doing. I didn't need the extra meal, let alone one that was so full of fat.
BLECH!!!

I think I can honestly say that WW has saved me from a horrible existence!!

Pleased!

So I am very happy with how my day went yesterday.
I have made a list of all of the groceries I want, along with the healthy meals I am going to make with them. I feel like I did when I joined WW 3 years ago (almost exactally), just excited to be eating healthier and losing weight!

My mom is going to go to the store for me, and get me the foods I need. I feel so deprived as I havent had ANY vegetables in my house for at least 2 weeks. My dinners are just lacking.

Yesterday's Food

B- Life cereal w 1% milk
L- Tuna Sandwich on whole wheat, astro fruit yogurt
S- Chips
D- lean breaded pork chops, homemade fries
S- frozen yogurt
32pts + 1 flex

The chips were not planned, but I tracked then and made them work in my day. As you can see my meals are severly lacking some produce!!

Today's Food

B- Life cereal w 1% milk
L- Tuna Sandwich on whole wheat
S- French Vanilla Cap + raspberry donut
*this was supposed to be a steeped tea and 2 timbits. They were out of timbits and I caved.
S- Granny smith apple
D- Steak & sweet potato

So far this leaves me with 6 points left. I think I may also have a yogurt before dinner, which still leaves me with 5

I will work on this!!

Have a great Tuesday

Sigh

Another week has gone by and more weight has been put on. It is really frustrating. I cant afford to put on any more weight.....really I cant. If I keep gaining, then my wedding dress will no loger fit and I will have to buy a new one.

I have always eaten my WPA and lost weight, but since I am rarely moving, I think I am going to try to not eat any of them (or very little) . I am pretty sure that this will help. I will test it out for a couple weeks and see how itworks for me.

Another thing I HAVE to start getting back to is drinking water. This should also help me.

Lets hope this week is better than the last has been.

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On a positive note, John and I met with the photographer for our wedding. Things are really coming together and I am very very pleased! RSVP's have been rolling in and people still have 4 weeks to send them.
We have received money from his parents to help pay for the vendors (besides the hall/dinner).

I will have to walk down the aisle with crutches or a cane....so I will have to make ideas on how to decorate them. So far that is the only snag to my wedding, so I will be ok if it is the only one.

Well....It's Monday

And I am actually feeling pretty good.....(except the hip pain...that is still present)

I decided that because I am not going to be able to do much activity with my broken leg, and the other issues that has brought about I need to focus more on what I am eating. I decided to suck it up and rejoin WW Online. I don't really have the money, but it helps me become more accountable for what I am doing; and I missed the recipe builder.

I already tracked today (including the dinner I haven't eaten yet) and it leaves me with 2 points left for the day. I think I will treat myself to some fat free frozen yogurt. MMMM!!

I tracked for Saturday and Sunday. I didn't do as well those days as I wanted, but I tracked, and still have most of my WPA, I just didn't make the best choices (Pizza....mmmm)
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Right now I am working at lab in a university and I enjoy my job and love the people I work with, but I think I a ready for something new. My contract with this job ends in October (unless my employer gets more money for me) and I cant wait until I have no job to find a new job. Also where I work is where I did my placement for school and is my first real job since graduating. I think I am ready to move on to something different.

The issue I have is that where I live, there are no jobs available. I look every couple days but there's nothing. If I were to move to a bigger city like Toronto or Ottawa I would have trouble finding a job, but here not so much.

I am not going o let this get me down as I have just under 6 months to find one, but I just don't want to be unemployed (or work somewhere for minimum wage)

Going the Wrong Way

well things seem to be going the wrong direction for me.
I haven't lost any weight since recommitting myself. I am not going to freak out yet, but I'm kind of displeased.
When I started on March 13 I weighed 248.3 and I now weigh 250.0
I know it's not a lot, and I am happy that since I cannot walk that I am pretty much maintaining my weight, but maintenance is not what I want.

I will have to pay tighter attention to what I am eating because that seems to be the only thing that will help me right now.

TODAY I start being more strict with my food!!!
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Another thing going the wrong way is the healing of my leg. Well not really the wrong way, but definitely at a stand still.

I was originally told that I would be able to walk on my wedding day (which is 70 days from today). I went to the doctor on Thursday and it looks like I may not be able to walk by then. At my appointment I was told that it will be at least 2 months before I will be able to start using my leg. My xrays show that there hasn't been very much healing of the bones, as they look almost the same as they did back in February when I broke it.

I am kind of frustrated about it and was stressing about it for a couple days. I had already accepted the fact that I would at least be requiring a cane to walk down the aisle. I had plans to decorate the cane, and have no trouble walking down that aisle. Now I may need crutches which I don't really want.

I am trying to stay positive about everything and I am still hoping that a cane is what I will be using. Keeping my fingers crossed!!!

Post Easter

So for Easter John and I went to visit his family in Peterborough. Things went OK but I could have done a WHOLE lot better!!

I don't know what it is but every time I am visiting his family I think it is an excuse to eat. I don't have much self control. I did OK on some of the days that I was there, but it was after I realised that the first few days were not so hot.

When it came to my meals I never overate. My portions were normal size and seconds were not existent. My issue came to the goodies. I may have mentioned it in a previous post, but my FMIL loves to bake. If there is an event, there are baked goods.

The day we got there she had white coconut macaroons made...YUMMY!! i couldn't keep my hands off. Later that day she made Buttermilk Potato Doughnuts.
*these may sound odd but they are SOOOO good. The dough is made with mashed potatoes among the other normal baking ingredients.
These doughnuts are deep fried and then dipped in sugar. Not healthy but really good.

The next day was John's dad's birthday, which included birthday cake....and more (like 4-5) doughnuts.

The next day was Sunday.... EASTER!! And on top of dinner what did I have?.... A slice of pumpkin pie with whipping cream. She also made lemon meringue and cherry pie. Easter dinner is when I realised that I need to slow down and pay more attention to what I am eating.

We were in ptbo for 2 more days and I had in that time 1 more small slice of pie and 1 doughnut so a lot better.
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On Saturday I was in Loblaws with John and his mom to get the birthday cake for his dad. We were on our way to the cash registers and what happens?????? My right crutch (that supports my broken right leg) finds some water on the floor and down I go! I land on my foot of the broken leg, and then on the floor, knocking down potted plants with me!!! UGH!
So pain.....Yes
activity....No because walking around with my leg hanging was hurting, and was much better for me to sit on the couch with my leg propped up.

I go to the doctors tomorrow to make sure I didn't cause more damage. I am not in a lot of pain so I think I may have just irritated it more than anything. I do have 2 metal plates and 21 screws so I think they held me in place pretty well.

Well that was my Easter....hope you all had a great and healthy one!

horrible reminder

I decided that it was time for a rude awakening, and a horrible reminder. I thought I needed to put up these picture to remine me of where I started and where I dont want to return.

These pictures were taken on my 22nd birthday (March 2006). I was at my highest weight of 274lb and I wasn't very happy. I decided on May of that year it ws time to change my life

Weight: 274 size: 20-22

Current weight: 248.8 size: 16-18

Easter's a coming

So Easter is on it's way and it is going to be DIFFICULT!! this is where my restraint is going to have to kick it into high gear.

John (fiance) and I are going to his parents house tomorrow morning.
Friday's dinner is to celebrate our birthday's (Mine was March 22 and His April 3) and his mom is cooking a roast. This means gravy, buttery potatoes, and carrots dripping with butter.
Sunday dinner is turkey dinner. Sooooo very similar to Friday.
She wants to bake a birthday cake.
John wants her to make homemade donuts
She will probably be making a pie (she makes minimum 8 pies for Xmas)
and then on top of it all, she will be giving us chocolates, I know it

PORTION CONTROL will be my best friend this week!!!

I will be trying my best to get online; here and on ww.ca to be accountable for everything I do and eat. I cant afford to gain any more weight right now!!

I WILL be successful
I WONT overeat

but I am scared

Canadian Living Recipes

So today things went ok for me. Just finished eating dinner which was realllly yummy, but I havent done any activity today EEK!!
I have been looking through some of my Canadian Living magazines writing down some recipes that sound really yummy. I am excited to go to the store and get things I need. Two of them sound extra yummy so I thought I would share: Peanut Chicken Pitas and Chai Spiced Baked Oatmeal.

Peanut Chicken Pitas
2 boneless skinless chicken breasts
1 tbsp canola oil
¼ tsp salt and pepper
3 tbsp soy sauce
3 tbsp lime juice
2 tsp sugar
1 tsp minced gingerroot
1 tsp sesame oil
1 minced clove garlic
2 ribs celery, diced
2 green onions, diced
1 carrot, grated
½ cup snow peas, blanced and quarted crosswise
4 pita bread halved, or flour tortillas

Brush chicken with oil; sprinkle salt and pepper. Roast on baking sheet in 400F oven until juices run clear when chicken is pierced, 20-25 minutes. Let cool; cut into cubes *make ahead and refrigerate for up to 6 hours
In large bowl, whisk together peanut butter, soy sauce, lime juice, sugar, ginger, sesame oil and garlic until smooth. Stir in chicken, celery, green onions, carrot and snow peas
Divide among pitas

Makes 4 servings
per serving: 418 cal, 28g pro, 15g fat (2g sat fat), 44g carb, 4g fibre, 42mg chol, 989mg sodium
(9POINTS)

Chai Spiced Baked Oatmeal
1 ½ cups large flake rolled oats
¼ cup packed brown sugar
½ tsp cinnamon
¼ ground ginger and cardamom
¼ tsp salt
pinch ground cloves and pepper
2 cups milk
1 cup toasted almonds
1 cup blueberries

In a bowl, stir together oats, sugar, cinnamon, ginger, cardamom, salt, cloves and pepper; pour in milk and 1 ½ cups water, blending well. Scrape into greased 8inch square glass baking dish
Bake in 350F oven, stirring once, until liquid is absorbed and oats are softened, about 50 minutes. Serve with almonds and blueberries to sprinkle over top.
*make ahead: let cool. Refrigerate in airtight container for up to 3 days. Serve warm

Makes 4-6 servings
per each of 6 servings: 269cal, 10g pro, 11g fat (2g sat fat), 35g carb, 5g fibre, 7mg chol, 137mg sodium.
(5POINTS)

So the points aren't the lowest, but may work for people like me who have a lot each day (31) or if you want to use some flex. There are also ways that you can alter these recipes to make them even healtier (use WW wraps instead of pita for example)

Food for today...
Breakfast: 6
Tim Hortons Cinnamon Bagel with very little butter (6)
Steeped Tea (0)

Lunch: 7
Oven Roast Pork Tenderloin (5)
Rice (2)

Snack: 8
2 homemade muffins (8)

Dinner: 12
Tomato Soup (3)
Grilled Cheese (7)
1 cup 1% milk (2)

Points Used: 33
Points Left: -2

Liquids: IIIIII
Fruit/Veggies: I
Milk: III
Oil:
Protein: I
Multi Vitamin: I
Whole Grains:

So yesterday went pretty good.
I said in the morning what I was going to eat and i tried to follow that plan, but I slipped a little

What I said I would eat:

2 slices ww toast w PB&J
1 cup milk
100cal snack
chili
1 can diet coke
roast pork tenderloin with carrots and rice
1 cup milk

Points Used:27
Points Left:4

What I did eat:

2 slices ww toast w PB&J
1 cup milk
100cal snack
chili (1/2 of what I brought)
1 can diet coke
1 medium french vanilla cappuccino
roast pork tenderloin with peas and rice
1 can diet coke
1 muffin that tastes like donuts (yes that's the title of it, DF made them)

Points Used: 32
Points Left: -1

So points wise I didn't do too bad.....but when you take a look at what I ate I really didn't do that good. I need to get to the grocery store because I am really lacking on the fruits and vegetables. Also as you can see, I did not have one glass of water. I know that with WW we now liquids, but I wanted at least half my liquids to be water.

Today I hope to do better......again I will be lacking on the fruit/veggie side because I don't have any at home and cant get to the store in my condition :(

Activity......????

YES i did some activity! While dinner was cooking I decided that I can be a little more productive than just sitting on my ass in front of the TV.
I was able to do 50 crunches, then 20 crunches + bicycle kicks, then 20 push ups and then I worked with my hand weights.
I plan to do it again tonight.

Being Accountable!!

So I have been thinking to myself that I needed a way to be accountable for what I do on this journey. I didn't feel like just writing here was enough, because really i could just not write it; it is my blog.

On the WW.ca boards I am part of a group which is called Curvy Cuties. All of us are those who have at least 80 (i believe this is the number) pounds to lose. Today it has been decided that because we ALL seem to have a hard time with sticking to what we say we are going to do we will have a challenge: Curvy Cuties Beach Blast Challenge.

For this challenge we have a goal weight to achieve by June 21 (first day of summer). Because I cannot move very easily I have made this weight 12lb. That is just over 1lb/week.

Also what we are going to do is tell everyone what are plans for the day are food and activity wise, and the next day report to all how well we did.

I think this will help me because MANY MANY MANY times I have said I am going to do something or eat something and things just don't go that way. The couch calls my name and I become a lump on the couch. Now I have people to report to every day, and I will be very embarrassed if i tell them that all i did was lay on the couch every night. LOL

Sucks!! but I am working on it

So I WI this morning and i had a gain :P
I now weigh 248.8 which is a gain of 0.5lb. TOM started yesterday so this may be the reason. I am not going to let it bother me yet. I will see what happens at y next weekend as that will make more sense in the end.

I worked out yesterday, which was a big change. Its amazing on how little i have to do right now to get tired and build up a sweat. I didn't do very much: used the hand weights doing different types of lifts and boxing punches; but wow i was tired after. I will just have to make sure I keep up with it.

Food I am still having trouble with. I just dont have the motivation to cook!! when i do get myself some food I am trying my best to make sure what I am eating is healthy, and I am watching portion sizes, but i really just dont want to cook. It just takes so much energy and strength to stand in the kitchen to cook on one leg, that i just dont want to so it. Also all of the frozen meat in the house is in the freezer in the basement; 16 stairs. It is really hard for me to go up and down these stairs with the crutches, let alone with a frozen hunk of meat. I am not sure what I can do to stop feeling this way....but at least I am not sabotaging myself because of it.

I am hungry now and I have no idea what I am going to eat. eek

Slacking....no more

So i have really been slacking when it comes to my blog. I love writing in it but I seem to forget or put it off. I need to get my act together.

Well this last week has been some ups and downs I guess you can put it.
Monday I had my doctors appointment about my leg. I was really hoping that he would tell me i can start putting a little pressure on it, or that I can take the air cast off while I sleep.....NOPE!!! Nothing has changed and I still have to put zero pressure on it for another 6 weeks which is when my next appointment is :(

Because of this I am still limited to the amount of activity I can do, but I am going to do as much upper body as I can; without my arms feeling like they are going to fall off, since I use them to walk.

I decided that I needed to get my act in gear for real. I am trying to get my motivation up and its been hard. You read my blogs and i seem to say each time that I am going to get back to it and then I don't. I am hoping I can change this this time. On Saturday past it was 13 weeks until my wedding. I decided that I am going to lose 13lb by then. That is only 1lb a week and I think with the right foods alone i should be able to do this. I need to make sure that I fit into my dress because at this point I cannot afford a new one.

I WILL work out to the best of my ability
I WILL make healthy food choices
I WILL not give up
I WILL lose 13lb

wish me luck everyone :)