tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-57854819170532069532024-03-13T07:57:27.876-04:00Success and Struggles of Weight LossMy Weight Loss Journey with Weight Watchers~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.comBlogger100125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-66268902581964335992010-03-15T18:08:00.001-04:002010-03-15T18:09:48.655-04:00<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">So I am leaving this blog and starting again</span></b><div><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></b></div><div><a href="http://letscutthefat.blogspot.com"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Let's Cut The Fat</span></b></a></div><div><br /></div>~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-3062149412146132352009-08-04T18:32:00.003-04:002009-08-04T20:28:12.718-04:00I need a change<span style="color:#ccffff;">I really need a kick in the ass and a slap in the face.</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">I SAY I will be better</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">I SAY that I will track</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">I dont.</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">I have no idea where to get motivation from.</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">I read other people's blogs hoping to find motivation that way....doesn't work.</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">I am not sure what to do</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">I weighed myself yesterday.....after eating some chips and dip.... I was back to where I was when I rejoined a year ago....sigh. 261.....261...... man things are not going well for me and I need to get myself out of this junk food hole.</span>~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-71037361608208695332009-07-22T08:48:00.002-04:002009-07-22T08:57:05.581-04:00100Yes this is post number 100.<br />I don't really have anything special to say.<br />No good news, nothing fun.....just that this is post 100.<br /><br />By this time I wanted to lose a lot more weight than I have so far.<br />it's been a year since I decided to get back into losing weight and I have only lost 5lb since then. I really wish I could get myself back to where I was 3 years ago when I lost 52lb. I kick myself when I think about how much weight I have put back on.<br /><br />The broken leg (which still hasn't healed) has really put a damper on everything. It has messed with my emotions as it has ruined some things for me and is making my life really difficult right now. I can't do my job the way it should be done, I can't exercise, I cant drive for long periods, it's hard to go anywhere on my own. My contract at work is ending and I need to find a job. Who is gonna want to hire someone who cant walk without crutches??? especially to work in a lab.<br /><br />This Friday is 24 weeks since I broke my leg!!!! that is almost half of the year!!!!! It is beyond getting ridiculous now!!!<br /><br />Enough of that sadness!<br />I have decided that now that the wedding is over, and I am back from my honeymoon that it was time to get my but back in gear and at least eat healthy. Well I decided this yesterday and what did I eat..... 1/2 bag of dill pickle chips.....eek! I have been craving them for weeks and just fel like I needed them. Now I need John to finish them so I wont.<br /><br />I did some grocery shopping and tried to get some foods that I can eat that are healthier for me. I think I did pretty good! Now to get back into tracking mode and I will be back 100%~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-82876711104669464422009-07-08T19:38:00.003-04:002009-07-08T20:00:55.921-04:00MRS. RIDLEY!!!<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_2LDJXedQKLI/SlUumNTcU1I/AAAAAAAAAHc/NaU6GddwqHg/s1600-h/5085_234923830720_555650720_7481477_7390195_n.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5356238565768188754" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_2LDJXedQKLI/SlUumNTcU1I/AAAAAAAAAHc/NaU6GddwqHg/s320/5085_234923830720_555650720_7481477_7390195_n.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>I am now married!! I got married on June 27 to the love of my life and it was a great day!!!</div><div>When I get more pictures I will definitely post them. <a href="http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=273046&id=555650720&l=57f693f35f"><strong>Here</strong></a> are some that were taken with my mom's camera (none from the ceremony as she was part of it).</div><div> </div><div></div><div>I am going on my Honeymoon this <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Saturday</span> on a Western Caribbean Cruise.</div><div></div><div>After all of this I NEED to get back on track!! I am seeing myself slowly getting larger and it <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">ain't</span> looking pretty.</div><div> </div><div></div><div>Because I am not walking as much (you know because of the broken leg still......sigh), I am losing <strong>a lot</strong> of muscle mass and I am putting on fat. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">SOOOOOO</span> not good! My belly is getting larger and soon clothes are not going to fit properly.</div><div> </div><div></div><div>Once I get back from my honeymoon, I am going to be more strict about my food!! If we are going to start a family in the near future I need to get myself healthy!!!!!</div>~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-7727957467293177152009-06-17T08:10:00.002-04:002009-06-17T08:21:07.147-04:00I really need to be eating better. I can say that this week has been better than last week, but I have gotten myself into the "I really don't FEEL like cooking" mood, which is not really a mood to be in. I look in my cupboards and none of the food in them appeal to me. I guess I am just board with my food but not sure what I want to do with mix or spice it up. It would really help if I could just run to the store and grab something to cook.....sigh.<br /><br />I am driving now, since I can put 50% pressure on my leg (it doesn't take that much pressure to press the gas pedal), the issue is that it takes so much time to get in and out of the car.<br /><br />I get to my car and put the crutches in the passenger seat. I take my air cast off and put it in the passenger seat. I carefully put a shoe on my foot of the broken leg.....this is a challenge because my foot is still swollen and I cant just yank the shoe on. Then I drive. When I get to my destination, shoe comes off, boot goes on, get out of car, grab crutches and go....... then the process goes over again when I am done in the store -- I also cant push a shopping cart very well.<br />This is going to be a long few months.....AGAIN!<br /><br /><br /><br />On a different note, I decided that I needed to somehow make some more money and for a while didn't know what I was going to do. I have now figured that out!!<br />I am now an <span style="color:#33ff33;">Independent EcoAdvisor for OnlyGreen</span>. OnlyGreen sells environmentally friendly products including beauty & health products, baby care, household products, clothing & accessories, paper & plastic alternatives etc. and I am selling these products.<br /><br />If you are interested check out the Spring Summer Catalogue: <a href="http://www.onlygreen.com/media/files/Catalog_SpringSummer09.pdf">http://www.onlygreen.com/media/files/Catalog_SpringSummer09.pdf</a><br /><br />And if you would like to purchase any products you can do so through me:<br /><a href="http://www.ea.onlygreen.com/nikishagrant">http://www.ea.onlygreen.com/nikishagrant</a><br /><a href="mailto:nikishagrantridley@hotmail.com">nikishagrantridley@hotmail.com</a>~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-64068734709655736402009-06-10T15:16:00.002-04:002009-06-10T15:24:13.482-04:00Anxious<p><span style="color:#ffcc33;">That is how I am feeling.....<br />Just about the wedding and everything happening. It's coming so fast. If doesn't feel like that long ago I got engaged, but that was 18 months ago!<br /><br />Just trying to tie up some loose strings, but so far so good.<br /><br />As for the leg....<br />I had my Doctor's appointment for my leg. This Friday will mark week 18 wince the break and I am still hobbling around on crutches.<br />My doctor informed me that it will be at LEAST 2 more months again that I have to use the crutches and I cannot weight bare more than 50% on my broken leg.<br />UGGGH this healing process is soooooo slow. Different doctors keep asking me if I am a smoker or if I live with a smoker because it can slow down the bone healing process. The answer to both is NO.</span></p><p><span style="color:#ffcc33;">The doctor has given me permission to walk down the aisle with a cane, so I am happy about that. Less likely to get my dress all dirty and easier to get down the aisle. It's pretty short so I think I will be good.</span></p><p><span style="color:#ffcc33;">What sucks is that I have this stupid boot on ALL SUMMER!!!! It is going to get sweaty and stinky and I wont be able to do a lot of the activity that I was planning on doing this summer. I wanted to ride my bike to work, I wanted to go for hikes with John, so I guess I will have to wait another year for that.</span></p><p><span style="color:#ffcc33;">WW<br />Like I said before I haven't really been following it, but just trying to maintain. I had a bad week eating wise last week (or maybe it was 2 weeks ago) where I had KFC, McDonald's, Dairy Queen and I think Burger King all in the same week. SOOOOOOO not good for me! This week I have been much better in watching what I eat. As long as I don't gain I am happy. Once the wedding is done I am going to focus more on my points again. There is just so much in my brain right now that points have been pushed on the back burner. That will change soon!</span></p><span style="color:#ffcc33;"></span>~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-26824424711260478462009-06-07T20:37:00.002-04:002009-06-07T20:42:21.878-04:00An ApologyTo everyone who reads my blog.<br /><br />I was feeling lousy for a while and not myself, and really didn't feel like announcing anything about my life to the world.<br />Things are a lot better.<br /><br />I have also been pretty busy. I get married in 20 days, so I am trying to finalise things with all of the vendors and what not. Also last week we booked our honeymoon!!!!!<br /><br />John and I are SOOOOOO excited!!! we are going on a Western Caribbean cruise with Carnival from July 11-18. We visit Ocho Rios Jamaica, Grand Cayman Cayman Island, and Cozumel Mexico.<br /><br />As for the weight thing, I was actually just trying to maintain. I cant afford to have my dress altered some more (as I was just getting it hemmed) and I fit into it perfect. Once the wedding happens I will be back to full on weight loss mode.<br /><br />I will try more to post. I think many of my posts will be more wedding related for the next 3 weeks, so hope you don't mind :)~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-4120206178446273372009-05-14T13:55:00.002-04:002009-05-14T14:17:50.043-04:00**sigh**So I am sitting here at work....bored out of my mind and hungry!!<br />All I want to do is get a poutine and chips and sit in front of the TV and eat them!!!!!<br />I know not the best choices, but that's kind of how I feel right now. I am not sure. I don't feel unhappy or anything, but I just feel Blah........<br /><br />I think because I cant actually do my intended job at work that its really getting to me now. I cant really carry acid samples down the hall with crutches...that is just asking for trouble. Work now just seems like a place to go, not a place to do something.<br /><br />**sigh**~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-12436757992798829942009-05-12T08:55:00.002-04:002009-05-12T09:08:26.230-04:00<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ffcccc;">So I did alright yesterday. Tracked everything. Ate half of a Cinnamon bun that I didn't plan on eating (man I wish these weren't in the house), but I tracked it.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ffcccc;">Today I hope will be much better.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ffcccc;">I have no idea what I am going to make for dinner. This is where difficulty comes in. If John doesn't pull something for me to cook for dinner, I end up having something that's not so good, only because the deep freeze is in the basement and it is hard to carry frozen meat up the stairs with crutches....... *sigh*</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ffcccc;">On another note, I have started to put some weight on my leg (very little) and use it a bit. The doctor didn't tell me I could, but the physiotherapists have looked at my xrays and MRI and said that my bones wont heal if they aren't used; I guess that could explain why I have had pretty much NO healing at all. I still use my crutches and only put a little weight on. I am afraid to do too much because I don't want to mess anything else up, especially before the wedding.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ffcccc;">I was supposed to see my doctor today about my leg, a monthly check up. 3 weeks ago I get a letter saying that today's appointment was cancelled and that I will be contacted to be reschedule. I have yet to be contacted, and I called yesterday and was told that they haven't made new appointments yet for my doctor.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ffcccc;">Where is my doctor?? Is he on vacation or something?? couldn't he have figured this out before making appointments?? who knows really.... I was just hoping to have 2 appointments before my wedding, now it looks like only one.</span>~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-13206176516737049602009-05-11T10:09:00.002-04:002009-05-11T10:21:24.194-04:00My weekend!So my weekend....meh!<br /><br />Things didn't get much better after my chip binge. I didn't continue to go crazy, but I didn't count ANYTHING.<br /><br />Friday night...I ate 2/3 of a frozen pizza to myself.<br />Saturday night... Swiss chalet. I ordered the white meat, but I ate the skin and ordered fries instead of a salad.<br /><br />WI Saturday morning wasn't horrible. I gained 0.5lb. I think the majority of that may have been water retention due to the sodium packed things I have eaten in the last few days.<br /><br />Today I am back on track!<br />--------<br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I have realised this weekend that I think my body is under more stress than my brain thought. The ankle of my broken leg has been sore</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I am in A LOT of pain most days because my hip is inflamed from walking on crutches</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">The big toe of my broken leg now has a fungal infection from the air cast</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">Planning my wedding (which is in 47 days)</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">Now I haven't felt very stressed mentally, but my body is telling me I am. </span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I get cold sores, and have for 20 years. They usually come if I am getting sick, or if I am stressed, and I only ever get them on my lip.</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I woke up Saturday morning with my chin covered in them...about 6 of them.</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">UGH!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I think the combination of pain and the medications I am taking, then trying to have a normal life when I cannot walk and have to rely on others are causing my body to freak out. </span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">To add to it John's nan was rushed to the hospital in my city from another (about 45 mins away) because of a massive heart attack and she needed surgery right away.</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I need some time off!</span>~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-61716502042688897712009-05-08T08:37:00.002-04:002009-05-08T08:39:13.469-04:00UGH!!In the last 2 days I have eaten 2 bags of chips. No, not the personal size bags, the big bags.<br />WHY??? For no apparent reason. Just because I had a craving and over did it.<br />I don't even want to know how many points that was.<br />I WI tomorrow morning, so I will just put it past me and start a new week<br /><br />but i do feel pretty UGH! because of it.~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-78521449983761504542009-05-02T11:24:00.002-04:002009-05-02T11:46:40.150-04:00Do little dance.....<span style="color:#99ffff;">.... Make a little love, get down tonight!</span><br /><span style="color:#99ffff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#99ffff;">Ok well at least do a little dance, for me :)</span><br /><span style="color:#99ffff;">Since recommiting to counting points all I have done is STS or gain weight. I was getting very frustrated.</span><br /><span style="color:#99ffff;">Today I WI and lost 2.7lb!!! YAY ME!!!</span><br /><span style="color:#99ffff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#99ffff;">This week the only change I did was that I didnt eat any of my flex points (until some last night). I think I may try that again since I am not being active. </span><br /><span style="color:#99ffff;"></span><br /><em><span style="color:#99ffff;">As for my food today:<br />B</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#99ffff;">1 egg scrambled (2)</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#99ffff;">1 slice whole grain bread w jam (4)</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#99ffff;">1/2 cup chocolate milk & 1/2 cup 1% milk (2.5)</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#99ffff;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#99ffff;">S</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#99ffff;">fruit smoothie (vanilla yogurt, banana, frozen berries, milk) (5)</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#99ffff;">orange (1)</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#99ffff;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#99ffff;">L</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#99ffff;">breaded frozen fish fillet (3)</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#99ffff;">salad w tomato, mushrooms, cheese and renees light caesar dressing (3)</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#99ffff;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#99ffff;">D</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#99ffff;">TBD; possibly homemade pizza on pita bread (6)</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#99ffff;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#99ffff;">S- Frozen Yogurt (2)</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#99ffff;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#99ffff;">Points Used: 28.5</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#99ffff;">Points Left: 2.5</span></em>~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-64571570579338055972009-04-30T20:47:00.002-04:002009-04-30T21:09:17.180-04:00FOOD GLORIOUS FOOD!!!My mom went grocery shopping for me and I am sooooo happy!<br />I can now get really serious about my weight loss now. I have been without vegetables for about 3 weeks and without fruit for about a week and it has been hard to figure out what to eat. I have stayed within my points, but my choices were not always the greatest.<br /><br /><em>Some of the foods I got:</em><br />apples, oranges, bananas, broccoli, cauliflower, tomatoes, mushrooms, carrots, whole grain bread, chicken breasts, low fat lunch meat, tuna, cereal plus some other things.<br /><br />Today's food kinda sucked until dinner which was very yummy!!!<br />Boneless skinless chicken breast, seasoned and grilled on the George Foreman, fried rice with mushrooms and green onions, and carrots.<br /><br />Tomorrow's Plan<br />b- Special K cereal with 1% milk & banana (6)<br />s- yogurt (1)<br />l- grilled chicken on a WW bun w tomato and low fat mayo, green apple, diet Pepsi (8)<br />s- orange (1)<br />d- TBD: having a mother daughter night, so we may get Thai food...I have 16pts left to use, plus 30WPA<br />------------------------<br /><br /><span style="color:#ffffcc;">I was thinking today about how far I actually HAVE come.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffffcc;">Although I have gained some of my weight back, I still have some success. I do not eat anywhere near as bad or as much as I used to. I don't get as winded doing things as I used to either.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffffcc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffffcc;">Back in 2005 we had a heat wave, and John and I did not want to turn the stove on because it was so hot. We ate out waaaaaaaayyyy more than we should have. Probably no less than 3 times per week.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffffcc;">Also one horrible thing I used to do when I was bored was drive to some fast food restaurant and get a burger. I would do this in between lunch and dinner. I wasn't necessarily hungry. I just was bored and fast food was the first thing on my mind. This was such a horrible thing that I am glad I stopped doing. I didn't need the extra meal, let alone one that was so full of fat.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffffcc;">BLECH!!!</span><br /><span style="color:#ffffcc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffffcc;">I think I can honestly say that WW has saved me from a horrible existence!!</span>~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-70806217332435401352009-04-28T14:29:00.002-04:002009-04-28T14:40:10.820-04:00Pleased!So I am very happy with how my day went yesterday.<br />I have made a list of all of the groceries I want, along with the healthy meals I am going to make with them. I feel like I did when I joined WW 3 years ago (almost exactally), just excited to be eating healthier and losing weight!<br /><br />My mom is going to go to the store for me, and get me the foods I need. I feel so deprived as I havent had ANY vegetables in my house for at least 2 weeks. My dinners are just lacking.<br /><br />Yesterday's Food<br /><br />B- Life cereal w 1% milk<br />L- Tuna Sandwich on whole wheat, astro fruit yogurt<br />S- Chips<br />D- lean breaded pork chops, homemade fries<br />S- frozen yogurt<br />32pts + 1 flex<br /><br />The chips were not planned, but I tracked then and made them work in my day. As you can see my meals are severly lacking some produce!!<br /><br />Today's Food<br /><br />B- Life cereal w 1% milk<br />L- Tuna Sandwich on whole wheat<br />S- French Vanilla Cap + raspberry donut<br />*this was supposed to be a steeped tea and 2 timbits. They were out of timbits and I caved.<br />S- Granny smith apple<br />D- Steak & sweet potato<br /><br />So far this leaves me with 6 points left. I think I may also have a yogurt before dinner, which still leaves me with 5<br /><br />I will work on this!!<br /><br />Have a great Tuesday~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-24816832725864508182009-04-27T12:58:00.002-04:002009-04-27T14:03:44.893-04:00SighAnother week has gone by and more weight has been put on. It is really frustrating. I cant afford to put on any more weight.....really I cant. If I keep gaining, then my wedding dress will no loger fit and I will have to buy a new one.<br /><br />I have always eaten my WPA and lost weight, but since I am rarely moving, I think I am going to try to not eat any of them (or very little) . I am pretty sure that this will help. I will test it out for a couple weeks and see how itworks for me.<br /><br />Another thing I HAVE to start getting back to is drinking water. This should also help me.<br /><br />Lets hope this week is better than the last has been.<br /><br />-----------------------------<br />On a positive note, John and I met with the photographer for our wedding. Things are really coming together and I am very very pleased! RSVP's have been rolling in and people still have 4 weeks to send them.<br />We have received money from his parents to help pay for the vendors (besides the hall/dinner).<br /><br />I will have to walk down the aisle with crutches or a cane....so I will have to make ideas on how to decorate them. So far that is the only snag to my wedding, so I will be ok if it is the only one.~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-16211570675458967482009-04-20T17:46:00.002-04:002009-04-20T17:57:11.556-04:00Well....It's MondayAnd I am actually feeling pretty good.....(except the hip pain...that is still present)<br /><br />I decided that because I am not going to be able to do much activity with my broken leg, and the other issues that has brought about I need to focus more on what I am eating. I decided to suck it up and rejoin WW Online. I don't really have the money, but it helps me become more accountable for what I am doing; and I missed the recipe builder.<br /><br />I already tracked today (including the dinner I haven't eaten yet) and it leaves me with 2 points left for the day. I think I will treat myself to some fat free frozen yogurt. MMMM!!<br /><br />I tracked for Saturday and Sunday. I didn't do as well those days as I wanted, but I tracked, and still have most of my WPA, I just didn't make the best choices (Pizza....mmmm)<br />-------<br /><br />Right now I am working at lab in a university and I enjoy my job and love the people I work with, but I think I a ready for something new. My contract with this job ends in October (unless my employer gets more money for me) and I cant wait until I have no job to find a new job. Also where I work is where I did my placement for school and is my first real job since graduating. I think I am ready to move on to something different.<br /><br />The issue I have is that where I live, there are no jobs available. I look every couple days but there's nothing. If I were to move to a bigger city like Toronto or Ottawa I would have trouble finding a job, but here not so much.<br /><br />I am not going o let this get me down as I have just under 6 months to find one, but I just don't want to be unemployed (or work somewhere for minimum wage)~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-34898111227314489592009-04-18T13:21:00.002-04:002009-04-18T13:34:09.922-04:00Going the Wrong Way<span style="color:#ffccff;">well things seem to be going the wrong direction for me.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">I haven't lost any weight since recommitting myself. I am not going to freak out yet, but I'm kind of displeased.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">When I started on March 13 I weighed 248.3 and I now weigh 250.0</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">I know it's not a lot, and I am happy that since I cannot walk that I am pretty much maintaining my weight, but maintenance is not what I want.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">I will have to pay tighter attention to what I am eating because that seems to be the only thing that will help me right now.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">TODAY I start being more strict with my food!!!</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">-------</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">Another thing going the wrong way is the healing of my leg. Well not really the wrong way, but definitely at a stand still.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">I was originally told that I would be able to walk on my wedding day (which is 70 days from today). I went to the doctor on Thursday and it looks like I may not be able to walk by then. At my appointment I was told that it will be at least 2 months before I will be able to start using my leg. My xrays show that there hasn't been very much healing of the bones, as they look almost the same as they did back in February when I broke it.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">I am kind of frustrated about it and was stressing about it for a couple days. I had already accepted the fact that I would at least be requiring a cane to walk down the aisle. I had plans to decorate the cane, and have no trouble walking down that aisle. Now I may need crutches which I don't really want.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">I am trying to stay positive about everything and I am still hoping that a cane is what I will be using. Keeping my fingers crossed!!!</span>~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-32353600901142183492009-04-15T15:21:00.002-04:002009-04-15T15:38:18.131-04:00Post EasterSo for Easter John and I went to visit his family in Peterborough. Things went OK but I could have done a WHOLE lot better!!<br /><br />I don't know what it is but every time I am visiting his family I think it is an excuse to eat. I don't have much self control. I did OK on some of the days that I was there, but it was after I realised that the first few days were not so hot.<br /><br />When it came to my meals I never overate. My portions were normal size and seconds were not existent. My issue came to the goodies. I may have mentioned it in a previous post, but my FMIL loves to bake. If there is an event, there are baked goods.<br /><br />The day we got there she had white coconut macaroons made...YUMMY!! i couldn't keep my hands off. Later that day she made Buttermilk Potato Doughnuts.<br />*these may sound odd but they are SOOOO good. The dough is made with mashed potatoes among the other normal baking ingredients.<br />These doughnuts are deep fried and then dipped in sugar. Not healthy but really good.<br /><br />The next day was John's dad's birthday, which included birthday cake....and more (like 4-5) doughnuts.<br /><br />The next day was Sunday.... EASTER!! And on top of dinner what did I have?.... A slice of pumpkin pie with whipping cream. She also made lemon meringue and cherry pie. Easter dinner is when I realised that I need to slow down and pay more attention to what I am eating.<br /><br />We were in ptbo for 2 more days and I had in that time 1 more small slice of pie and 1 doughnut so a lot better.<br />-------<br />On Saturday I was in Loblaws with John and his mom to get the birthday cake for his dad. We were on our way to the cash registers and what happens?????? My right crutch (that supports my broken right leg) finds some water on the floor and down I go! I land on my foot of the broken leg, and then on the floor, knocking down potted plants with me!!! UGH!<br />So pain.....Yes<br />activity....No because walking around with my leg hanging was hurting, and was much better for me to sit on the couch with my leg propped up.<br /><br />I go to the doctors tomorrow to make sure I didn't cause more damage. I am not in a lot of pain so I think I may have just irritated it more than anything. I do have 2 metal plates and 21 screws so I think they held me in place pretty well.<br /><br />Well that was my Easter....hope you all had a great and healthy one!~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-46258739817200278412009-04-09T22:48:00.003-04:002009-04-09T22:58:38.873-04:00horrible reminderI decided that it was time for a rude awakening, and a horrible reminder. I thought I needed to put up these picture to remine me of where I started and where I dont want to return.<br /><br /><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_2LDJXedQKLI/Sd60UEDGYiI/AAAAAAAAAHE/lnng-lFm9t4/s1600-h/nikishabirthday003.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5322890066375631394" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 214px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_2LDJXedQKLI/Sd60UEDGYiI/AAAAAAAAAHE/lnng-lFm9t4/s320/nikishabirthday003.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_2LDJXedQKLI/Sd60NVaIWJI/AAAAAAAAAG8/d1NwW7vwfD8/s1600-h/nikishabirthday002.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5322889950776547474" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 214px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_2LDJXedQKLI/Sd60NVaIWJI/AAAAAAAAAG8/d1NwW7vwfD8/s320/nikishabirthday002.jpg" border="0" /></a> These pictures were taken on my 22nd birthday (March 2006). I was at my highest weight of 274lb and I wasn't very happy. I decided on May of that year it ws time to change my life</div><div> </div><div>Weight: 274 size: 20-22</div><div>Current weight: 248.8 size: 16-18</div>~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-76011756938394296222009-04-09T08:10:00.004-04:002009-04-09T13:31:38.871-04:00Easter's a coming<span style="color:#99ffff;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">So Easter is on it's way and it is going to be DIFFICULT!! this is where my restraint is going to have to kick it into high gear.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">John (fiance) and I are going to his parents house tomorrow morning. </span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Friday's dinner is to celebrate our birthday's (Mine was March 22 and His April 3) and his mom is cooking a roast. This means gravy, buttery potatoes, and carrots dripping with butter. </span><br /></span><span style="color:#99ffff;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Sunday dinner is turkey dinner. Sooooo very similar to Friday.<br />She wants to bake a birthday cake.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">John wants her to make homemade donuts</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">She will probably be making a pie (she makes minimum 8 pies for Xmas)</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">and then on top of it all, she will be giving us chocolates, I know it</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">PORTION CONTROL will be my best friend this week!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I will be trying my best to get online; here and on ww.ca to be accountable for everything I do and eat. I cant afford to gain any more weight right now!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I WILL be successful</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I WONT overeat</span><br /><br />but I am scared</span>~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-88860651740734065472009-04-07T20:33:00.007-04:002009-04-09T13:32:05.275-04:00Canadian Living Recipes<span style="color:#ffcc99;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-family:verdana;">So today things went ok for me. Just finished eating dinner which was realllly yummy, but I havent done any activity today EEK!!</span></span><br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;">I have been looking through some of my Canadian Living magazines writing down some recipes that sound really yummy. I am excited to go to the store and get things I need. Two of them sound extra yummy so I thought I would share: Peanut Chicken Pitas and Chai Spiced Baked Oatmeal.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ccccff;"><strong>Peanut Chicken Pitas</strong><br />2 boneless skinless chicken breasts<br />1 tbsp canola oil<br />¼ tsp salt and pepper<br />3 tbsp soy sauce<br />3 tbsp lime juice<br />2 tsp sugar<br />1 tsp minced gingerroot<br />1 tsp sesame oil<br />1 minced clove garlic<br />2 ribs celery, diced<br />2 green onions, diced<br />1 carrot, grated<br />½ cup snow peas, blanced and quarted crosswise<br />4 pita bread halved, or flour tortillas<br /><br />Brush chicken with oil; sprinkle salt and pepper. Roast on baking sheet in 400F oven until juices run clear when chicken is pierced, 20-25 minutes. Let cool; cut into cubes *make ahead and refrigerate for up to 6 hours<br />In large bowl, whisk together peanut butter, soy sauce, lime juice, sugar, ginger, sesame oil and garlic until smooth. Stir in chicken, celery, green onions, carrot and snow peas<br />Divide among pitas<br /><br />Makes 4 servings<br />per serving: 418 cal, 28g pro, 15g fat (2g sat fat), 44g carb, 4g fibre, 42mg chol, 989mg sodium<br /><strong>(9POINTS)</strong><br /><br /><strong>Chai Spiced Baked Oatmeal</strong><br />1 ½ cups large flake rolled oats<br />¼ cup packed brown sugar<br />½ tsp cinnamon<br />¼ ground ginger and cardamom<br />¼ tsp salt<br />pinch ground cloves and pepper<br />2 cups milk<br />1 cup toasted almonds<br />1 cup blueberries<br /><br />In a bowl, stir together oats, sugar, cinnamon, ginger, cardamom, salt, cloves and pepper; pour in milk and 1 ½ cups water, blending well. Scrape into greased 8inch square glass baking dish<br />Bake in 350F oven, stirring once, until liquid is absorbed and oats are softened, about 50 minutes. Serve with almonds and blueberries to sprinkle over top.<br />*make ahead: let cool. Refrigerate in airtight container for up to 3 days. Serve warm<br /><br />Makes 4-6 servings<br />per each of 6 servings: 269cal, 10g pro, 11g fat (2g sat fat), 35g carb, 5g fibre, 7mg chol, 137mg sodium.<br /><strong>(5POINTS)</strong><br /></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong></strong></span></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">So the points aren't the lowest, but may work for people like me who have a lot each day (31) or if you want to use some flex. There are also ways that you can alter these recipes to make them even healtier (use WW wraps instead of pita for example)</span><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">Food for today...</span></strong><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong>Breakfast: 6</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Tim Hortons Cinnamon Bagel with very little butter (6)</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Steeped Tea (0)</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong>Lunch: 7</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Oven Roast Pork Tenderloin (5)</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Rice (2)</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong>Snack: 8</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">2 homemade muffins (8)</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong>Dinner: 12</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Tomato Soup (3)</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Grilled Cheese (7)</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">1 cup 1% milk (2)</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong>Points Used: 33</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong>Points Left: -2</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong>Liquids: IIIIII</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong>Fruit/Veggies: I</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong>Milk: III</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong>Oil:</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong>Protein: I</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong>Multi Vitamin: I</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong>Whole Grains:</strong></span><br /></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#663300;"><strong></strong></span>~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-6963825932226877742009-04-07T08:07:00.004-04:002009-04-09T13:32:33.247-04:00<span style="color:#ffffcc;">So yesterday went pretty good.<br />I said in the morning what I was going to eat and i tried to follow that plan, but I slipped a little</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;"><strong><em><span style="font-family:times new roman;">What I said I would eat:</span></em></strong><br /><span style="font-family:times new roman;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:times new roman;">2 slices ww toast w PB&J</span><br /><span style="font-family:times new roman;">1 cup milk</span><br /><span style="font-family:times new roman;">100cal snack</span><br /><span style="font-family:times new roman;">chili</span><br /><span style="font-family:times new roman;">1 can diet coke</span><br /><span style="font-family:times new roman;">roast pork tenderloin with carrots and rice</span><br /><span style="font-family:times new roman;">1 cup milk</span><br /><span style="font-family:times new roman;"></span><br /><em><span style="font-family:times new roman;">Points Used:27</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:times new roman;">Points Left:4</span></em><br /><span style="font-family:times new roman;"></span><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:times new roman;">What I did eat:</span></strong></em><br /><span style="font-family:times new roman;"></span><br /></span><span style="color:#ff99ff;"><span style="font-family:times new roman;">2 slices ww toast w PB&J<br />1 cup milk<br />100cal snack<br />chili <span style="font-size:78%;">(1/2 of what I brought)</span></span><br /><span style="font-family:times new roman;">1 can diet coke</span><br /></span><span style="color:#ff99ff;"><span style="font-family:times new roman;">1 medium french vanilla cappuccino<br />roast pork tenderloin with peas and rice</span><br /><span style="font-family:times new roman;">1 can diet coke</span><br /><span style="font-family:times new roman;">1 muffin that tastes like donuts <span style="font-size:78%;">(yes that's the title of it, DF made them)</span></span><br /><span style="font-family:times new roman;"></span><br /><em><span style="font-family:times new roman;">Points Used: 32</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:times new roman;">Points Left: -1</span></em><br /></span><br /><span style="color:#ffffcc;">So points wise I didn't do too bad.....but when you take a look at what I ate I really didn't do that good. I need to get to the grocery store because I am really lacking on the fruits and vegetables. Also as you can see, I did not have one glass of water. I know that with WW we now liquids, but I wanted at least half my liquids to be water.<br /><br />Today I hope to do better......again I will be lacking on the fruit/veggie side because I don't have any at home and cant get to the store in my condition :(<br /><br /><em>Activity......????</em><br /><br />YES i did some activity! While dinner was cooking I decided that I can be a little more productive than just sitting on my ass in front of the TV.<br />I was able to do 50 crunches, then 20 crunches + bicycle kicks, then 20 push ups and then I worked with my hand weights.<br />I plan to do it again tonight.</span>~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-11549813768675328132009-04-06T11:17:00.003-04:002009-04-09T13:33:32.661-04:00Being Accountable!!<span style="color:#ffffff;"><span style="font-family:georgia;">So I have been thinking to myself that I needed a way to be accountable for what I do on this journey. I didn't feel like just writing here was enough, because really i could just not write it; it is my blog.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">On the WW.ca boards I am part of a group which is called Curvy Cuties. All of us are those who have at least 80 (i believe this is the number) pounds to lose. Today it has been decided that because we ALL seem to have a hard time with sticking to what we say we are going to do we will have a challenge: Curvy Cuties Beach Blast Challenge.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">For this challenge we have a goal weight to achieve by June 21 (first day of summer). Because I cannot move very easily I have made this weight 12lb. That is just over 1lb/week.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Also what we are going to do is tell everyone what are plans for the day are food and activity wise, and the next day report to all how well we did.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">I think this will help me because MANY MANY MANY times I have said I am going to do something or eat something and things just don't go that way. The couch calls my name and I become a lump on the couch. Now I have people to report to every day, and I will be very embarrassed if i tell them that all i did was lay on the couch every night. LOL</span></span>~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-22093748041508302162009-04-03T18:23:00.004-04:002009-04-09T13:33:53.518-04:00Sucks!! but I am working on it<span style="color:#ccccff;"><span style="font-family:arial;">So I WI this morning and i had a gain :P</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I now weigh 248.8 which is a gain of 0.5lb. TOM started yesterday so this may be the reason. I am not going to let it bother me yet. I will see what happens at y next weekend as that will make more sense in the end.</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I worked out yesterday, which was a big change. Its amazing on how little i have to do right now to get tired and build up a sweat. I didn't do very much: used the hand weights doing different types of lifts and boxing punches; but wow i was tired after. I will just have to make sure I keep up with it. </span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">Food I am still having trouble with. I just dont have the motivation to cook!! when i do get myself some food I am trying my best to make sure what I am eating is healthy, and I am watching portion sizes, but i really just dont want to cook. It just takes so much energy and strength to stand in the kitchen to cook on one leg, that i just dont want to so it. Also all of the frozen meat in the house is in the freezer in the basement; 16 stairs. It is really hard for me to go up and down these stairs with the crutches, let alone with a frozen hunk of meat. I am not sure what I can do to stop feeling this way....but at least I am not sabotaging myself because of it.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;">I am hungry now and I have no idea what I am going to eat. eek</span><br /></span><span style="font-family:arial;"></span>~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5785481917053206953.post-47179757278131082332009-04-01T14:34:00.003-04:002009-04-09T13:34:30.126-04:00Slacking....no more<span style="color:#99ff99;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">So i have really been slacking when it comes to my blog. I love writing in it but I seem to forget or put it off. I need to get my act together.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /></span><span style="color:#99ff99;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Well this last week has been some ups and downs I guess you can put it.<br />Monday I had my doctors appointment about my leg. I was really hoping that he would tell me i can start putting a little pressure on it, or that I can take the air cast off while I sleep.....NOPE!!! Nothing has changed and I still have to put zero pressure on it for another 6 weeks which is when my next appointment is :(</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Because of this I am still limited to the amount of activity I can do, but I am going to do as much upper body as I can; without my arms feeling like they are going to fall off, since I use them to walk.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I decided that I needed to get my act in gear for real. I am trying to get my motivation up and its been hard. You read my blogs and i seem to say each time that I am going to get back to it and then I don't. I am hoping I can change this this time. On Saturday past it was 13 weeks until my wedding. I decided that I am going to lose 13lb by then. That is only 1lb a week and I think with the right foods alone i should be able to do this. I need to make sure that I fit into my dress because at this point I cannot afford a new one. </span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I WILL work out to the best of my ability</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I WILL make healthy food choices</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I WILL not give up</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I WILL lose 13lb</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">wish me luck everyone :)</span></span>~ Nikishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12878521671982895455noreply@blogger.com2